And the winner is....

Here is a little secret that I am going to share about me. I love entering contests. I don’t even think my closest friends know this. I enter to win stuff all the time, whether it is to win a pair of Leaf Tickets (I’ve been trying to win these for years), vacation giveaways, or home makeovers (this one makes no sense since I rent an apartment). 

I had recently submitted my name and e-mail in to be one of ten models for the Heart and Stroke Old Navy Fashion Show at The National Women’s Show in Toronto. They called me last Friday to tell me that I have been chosen to be one of the models for that show.  I won!  I was so excited that I won something that I forgot that I have a huge fear of being in front of people. I hate public speaking and I would rather not be the centre of attention. Now I am going to be walking down a runway in front of a few hundred people or more. What was I thinking when I entered that contest?

I am going forward with this, I am excited and scared shitless at the same time. It is exciting because we will be working with an imagine consultant and I have always wanted to do that. It will be nice to see what wardrobe suggestions they have for me.  I’m a jeans and t-shirt kind of gal, and I have wanted to change things up for some time and now that time has come.  I am scared shitless because I will have to walk on a runway in front of hundreds of people, just writing that gets my heart rate up. They say the only way to overcome your fears is to face them, not only will I be facing my fear that day I will be kicking it in the butt (hopefully). 

What is Fear? I read once that Fear = False Evidence Appearing Real, I like that because it is true. I am fearful that I will look ridiculous or fall on my face and people will be there thinking “what’s wrong with that girl, what was she thinking when she entered this contest?”... Basically I have a fear of them judging me.  It’s crazy because I will never know if they thought that, most people are not that judgemental and for the most part are very supportive. Also, why do we stress over something that hasn’t happened yet and yet does not exist? We work ourselves into a frenzy over the worst case scenarios and it takes away from our enjoyment of the journey, because even in worse case scenarios it’s never has bad as what you thought in your head.

My mission this week is to enjoy the journey, which includes a fitting, fashion consultation, runway practice and more. I will have my best gal pals out in the audience wishing me nothing but success, so really what is there to be afraid, how a girl can go wrong with such a great support team behind her? 

Ladies have you faced a fear? What was your experience please tell us about it. Or if you have a fear you haven’t faced tell us about maybe another SG follower has overcome that fear and can shed some insight for us all.

Wish me luck!

The never ending dating machine

Well – I’ve been away for a while, believe it or not in this away time, I’ve actually gone on a couple dates with hopefully more to come and I’ve actually been reading about dating. I’m charged and focused and this year I will get a boyfriend! Even if I have to kidnap him and cage him (but don’t worry, I’m not desperate or anything).

They say you have to go on at least 50 dates before you actually find someone you can tolerate…ok, maybe those aren’t the exact words, but that’s basically what they mean…so here is date 1 and 2:

The first guy I went on a date with was from Toronto and we were set up through friends of friends. He wanted to meet at a Keg…”Wow”, I thought, “fancy”.  It went well. No instant sparks or anything, but he was nice and the conversation was easy. Maybe a little on the arrogant side, but what the heck, no one is perfect. I did consider giving him a second date until the bill came. He took the bill and stared at it for the longest time until I said “Ok, do you want to split this then?” and he said “Whatever you want, it’s up to you”…what the heck does that mean? So we split it and any chance of a second date went out the window. He texted me about 4 days later saying, “I had a good time…not sure what your feelings were? But I didn’t feel a romantic connection”…so if I had texted back and been like, “Oh that sucks, I totally liked you…bummer” I wonder what his response would have been? I guess that’s why he didn’t pay for dinner. Personally if the guy invites you out and picks the place, they should pay no matter what.

The second guy actually came up to me at a bar…and then called to ask me out. I knew this guy was trouble cause I was attracted to him…Mark Walberg bod and all! We went out to dinner on our first date..blah, blah, blah…and he was instantly crazy about me. I saw him for a second date and he used a lot of “future” talk. He paid and ordered for me, which I liked, he’s fun and manly, older than me but still acted 17. He had a bit of a trouble youth and obviously has a couple screws lose. He called me twice drunk with strange possessive type conversation and once to apologize. We’ve known each other 3 weeks and he asked me to go away with him. God, it feel as though we’ve dated for a lifetime already! I started to feel sorry for him cause I think he’s a little messed up and super lonely. And now it’s ruined. He was too eager and I told him I can’t be an instant girlfriend and that I have to get to know and trust someone…he got offended and I haven’t heard from him since. Too bad…he had 2 of the 3 things I want in a man 1) to be attracted to him 2) wants a commitment (but not obsessively). Number 3 is just a nice guy…no fuss, no muss. This guy is way too much fuss and seriously needs to clear out some muss. 

So I’m 0 and 2…this is exhausting…I can’t imagine going on 48 more of these. 

Good luck out there gals…it’s rough.

Single Chick

Be careful who you love…

There comes a time in every single gal’s life when she may not make the best choices for herself. When those lonely moments seem more and more frequent and she begins to wonder “will I ever find the love that I desire?”… as she eats another meal alone. This is usually the phase when we let our good sense waiver. Our desire to have someone in our life may lead us to self-destructive behavior. One friend of mine is currently going through this phase; she had gotten involved with a married man. He told her the usual -  that he and his wife have no relationship, that his marriage is just one of convenience for the kids…blah blah blah. He told my friend he loved her but he cannot leave his wife because of the kids, but he also cannot live without her. The classic mind fuck!

Nothing good can come of this and she knows this but she also thinks she loves this man. For her it is better to have half a man than no man at all. She has forgotten that she deserves so much more. She deserves the whole man and that person is just waiting for her to cross his path but she may never get there if she continues settling for half a man. She had asked that I not judge her and I don’t. Sadly I understand what she is feeling. I know how strong the desire to have someone can be. I may not have been with a married man but I have certainly been in relationships where I have devalued who I am and what I deserve. I was hoping the Mr. Wrong would miraculously turn into Mr. Right. He never did.

One night over beers she told Single Chick and I that she’s not happy.  She said she hates everything about the situation but she cannot turn away because she’s in love. I am sure she believes she is in love and there may be some truth to her lover’s words of love. However that does not change the fact that he cannot love her in the way she desires and deserves therefore she must move on. We did advise our friend that she deserves better, and that yes it sucks out there but someone better will come along and that she has her girlfriends to hang with in the meantime. I’m not sure if she will take our advice or not, we hope so but that is her choice. All we can do now is be there for support. So for all you Single Gals who know what this lonely moment feels like, call up your best gal pals, go out and talk about it, believe me…we all understand and it’s okay to admit that sometimes you get lonely. I believe it’s better to feel lonely than be with someone that makes you sad, insecure, unworthy etc. If it is right you will have no doubts, you will feel happy, secure and totally worshiped.

Good Luck out there and remember that you’re not alone!

Top Five Reasons to be Happy that You’re Single…

1)      You get to watch whatever you want, like Rock of Love - hey it will make you feel so much happier that you’re single when you see Brett Michaels slobbering on numerous Silicone injected drunk, Poison groupies. After all YOU could be dating that!

2)      You don’t have to shave you legs ever if you so desire, think no ingrown hairs, no razor burn. You may look like a female Sasquatch but nobody needs to know.

3)      You can wear you comfy underwear all the time, screw the g-strings, and frilly barely there ride up your ass man invent bikini panties.

4)      You save on birth control. Just think that $25 a month that you would normally spend on birth control pills can now be spent on a good bottle of wine. This will help you forget that you are sitting alone at home in granny panties with legs hairier than your neighbors Burmese Mountain dog.

5)      You only have to deal with your dysfunctional family. That cuts the crazy in half!

Cheers!

The Snookie in Us All.

Yes I know it’s bad, I watch some not to proud to talk about TV and it’s in the form of Jersey Shore. To my defense I am only human and I think there is a part of us programmed to watch stupid people do stupid things. It’s kind of like those people that slow down for accidents on highways, they prefer half dead people I prefer half naked ones.

Watching this show you wouldn’t think you would learn anything but there is something I have learned and it is that there is a bit of Snookie in me. Don’t get me wrong I’m not a short, stumpy, overtly tanned, bumped hair, guidette but when I’m away from my hometown I am wilder and not as reserved as when I am at home. This type of behaviour is expressed by many people and we can go into the bazillion reasons as to why we are more “wild” but I think the ultimate reason is because we know that we don’t have to deal with the consequences.

For the Jersey Shore folks they have to relive their “wildness” in front of millions and there are records of it. With that said they are getting paid extremely well for what they would be doing for free so I don’t feel sorry for them. For most of us it’s random making out and one night stand’s and if you’re smart there aren’t any records of it.

The show is wearing on me and I do believe their 15 minutes have passed and if they were smart they would have saved for a rainy day. The guido and guidette lifestyle may not be for everyone but if you can take something from them it would be to have fun and not be so serious about everything.

Tell us what you Snookie quality you have we'd love to hear about it?

Queen B

The New Miracle Beer Diet

To dream a little dream

Recently I have been having crazy dreams about my crush. You see I have a little bit of a crush on someone and I bump into him every now and again. In my waking hours this person is not on my mind, but the moment I hit REM sleep there he is in all his glory. These dreams have only started happening and I find it quite odd as I am not really a dreamer and I have had dreams about this person for 3 nights in a row.

The first one I run into him at a restaurant and he tells me he has been looking all over for me and then just continues to give me love eyes from across the room. The second dream he is saving me from some bad guys and as I am engulfed in his big man arms, he is bestowing kisses on my head and telling me not to worry I am safe. The last dream and by far my favourite dream, he is waiting for me at my apartment with take-out, he asks if he can come in and to be honest I don’t remember the rest just that we end in my room. 

Maybe these are the characteristic of my perfect mate, he adores me (dream one), he is my protector (dream two) and he takes care of all my needs food and sex (dream three). Let get serious here who am I kidding I think he is hot and I am slowly having dirty dreams about him. I wonder what will happen in tonight’s dream.  I hope he shows up shirtless not that I know what he looks like without his shirt but a girl can dream, right?

Mistresses and Miners

Well if you haven’t already read about it in this morning’s paper the Chilean Miners that have been trapped underground for over 2 months are in the process of being rescued. I think this is a great show for humanity and of nations coming together and doing something good instead of destructive. It is a wonderful feeling knowing that people can come together and show what being human is really about. With that said there is another side to this story, that of the 5 wives who have been living with the knowledge that their husbands have been having affairs on them. One trapped miner has 4 women claiming to be his significant other (you go boy, lol).

I guess being human is also about having flaws. I know I have many flaws and I’m okay with admitting them but I don’t think cheating is something I have in me. I have read articles claiming there have been confrontations between the wives and mistresses? Really and I thought they would be drinking Chilean wine and relaying stories of their trapped husband/boyfriend.

I also wonder what I would do or say to my trapped husband when he emerged. I don’t know the answer to this question but knowing how I am I can honestly say I wouldn’t be embracing the man I once loved knowing he had been lying to me. I wouldn’t wish him ill either I think I just wouldn’t care. That may sound harsh but if someone you trust betrays you how do you truly forgive this person and be okay with things (even if he has been secluded underground for over 2 months and the world is looking at this as a grand/hopeful experience)? It may sound cruel but I don’t think I would be there to greet my husband. I feel sorry for those wives with the cheating husbands and I am sure if they had the option they would rather be in my shoes writing the what if’s of this scenario than having to live it in front of the world.

Queen B

The after work experiment

Queen B and are going to hit the after work scene.  It seems a good way to meet men is to hit a pub in the business district.  I believe we need to hang by the bar because how can anyone socialize with us when we are hidden away in a booth. So tonight we are going to test this theory out. 

There really only is three possible outcomes for tonight:

1)      We will meet a couple of fabulous guys and both end up with dates for next week.

2)      One of us will hook up and the other will have to be the wing man and chat with the obnoxious friend, fortunately Queen B and I are very good at handling THAT friend.

3)      We’ll end up getting loaded and then the evening is all about us and we stagger home only to laugh at ourselves tomorrow. This is the most likely scenario as we don’t do this often we tend to get carried away, but we sure do have fun!

We are going to hit a couple of different places and we will review and tell you all about it tomorrow. Wish us luck because if we are successful than that means we found a good place to find dates.