And the winner is....

Here is a little secret that I am going to share about me. I love entering contests. I don’t even think my closest friends know this. I enter to win stuff all the time, whether it is to win a pair of Leaf Tickets (I’ve been trying to win these for years), vacation giveaways, or home makeovers (this one makes no sense since I rent an apartment). 

I had recently submitted my name and e-mail in to be one of ten models for the Heart and Stroke Old Navy Fashion Show at The National Women’s Show in Toronto. They called me last Friday to tell me that I have been chosen to be one of the models for that show.  I won!  I was so excited that I won something that I forgot that I have a huge fear of being in front of people. I hate public speaking and I would rather not be the centre of attention. Now I am going to be walking down a runway in front of a few hundred people or more. What was I thinking when I entered that contest?

I am going forward with this, I am excited and scared shitless at the same time. It is exciting because we will be working with an imagine consultant and I have always wanted to do that. It will be nice to see what wardrobe suggestions they have for me.  I’m a jeans and t-shirt kind of gal, and I have wanted to change things up for some time and now that time has come.  I am scared shitless because I will have to walk on a runway in front of hundreds of people, just writing that gets my heart rate up. They say the only way to overcome your fears is to face them, not only will I be facing my fear that day I will be kicking it in the butt (hopefully). 

What is Fear? I read once that Fear = False Evidence Appearing Real, I like that because it is true. I am fearful that I will look ridiculous or fall on my face and people will be there thinking “what’s wrong with that girl, what was she thinking when she entered this contest?”... Basically I have a fear of them judging me.  It’s crazy because I will never know if they thought that, most people are not that judgemental and for the most part are very supportive. Also, why do we stress over something that hasn’t happened yet and yet does not exist? We work ourselves into a frenzy over the worst case scenarios and it takes away from our enjoyment of the journey, because even in worse case scenarios it’s never has bad as what you thought in your head.

My mission this week is to enjoy the journey, which includes a fitting, fashion consultation, runway practice and more. I will have my best gal pals out in the audience wishing me nothing but success, so really what is there to be afraid, how a girl can go wrong with such a great support team behind her? 

Ladies have you faced a fear? What was your experience please tell us about it. Or if you have a fear you haven’t faced tell us about maybe another SG follower has overcome that fear and can shed some insight for us all.

Wish me luck!